ThankYou!

I have spent many sleepless nights crying, worried sick. I have sunk into the deepest, darkest and deadliest of all depressions. Failures, inhibitions, losses are so temporary. It would have been a case of permanent mental and physical illness if you had not been there to wake me up, to help me rise and see the sunshine. Thank You, My Lord!

Sometimes I feel so lonely, so alone and unable to fit into the system, even when I am surrounded by so many people. I just feel so awful when I think that I am left alone to face this terrible battle called life against a million opposing forces. But then you somehow come to my rescue. You are my hero charioteer and give me new hope, energy, courage and strength. All I do is just call out to you and you instantly come. Thank You, My Lord!

I commit so many sins, mistakes knowingly or unknowingly. So many tiny, miserable creatures die under my clumsy feet everyday. I have been rude and mean to so many people. Yet, you are so kind and considerate towards me and you are always ready to protect me just by the mere utterance of your name. How fortunate am I to receive such mercy. Thank You! My Lord!

When I am hungry, you feed me. When I am cold you gift me a blanket and a cupboard full of clothes. When I am happy or sad, you smile and reassure me that you are always present. You quench my thirst, give me clean water to drink and bathe, clean air to breathe. Above all, you give me the discriminating capacity-the capacity to distinguish between what is right and what is wrong. When I need you the most, you come to me as a thought, a flash of lightening, a bright spark of idea. What did I do, to receive such a blessing? What will I do to repay you? You struggle, suffer, hope and endure all for me. Will everything get settled by just a mere thank you. I know not!

I am nothing. I know nothing. I see nothing. I am just a lazy old fool. Everything I have been getting throughout, solely belongs to you. I am uselessly clinging on to objects when I should instead be dedicating them all to you. 

You do all the things I ask as well as things unimaginable, things which I cannot even dream of asking. Yet I am forever discontented with mind and heart full of greed, dissatisfaction and petty desires. And still yet, you do not punish me. You are so steady and smiling with your kind eyes, looking at me always, shielding me always. 

I only have my ego, my useless stupid thoughts to give you. Take them. Take them all. I place them at your feet. Just one thing I ask of you. Give me gratefulness, give me the realisation, give me the mind which is only filled with thoughts about you, your smile, your kindness, your peace and this way let me fulfill the purpose of my life. Thanks again. Thank you, my sweet  Lord!

It happens...

• Out of a collection of n similar looking boxes I always open the wrong one at least n-1 times to search for the thing I want.
• Out a bunch of keys, never will I choose the correct key when I try to urgently unlock the door.
• When on the telephone and want to urgently note down a number, the pen and paper will always be at an uncomfortable distance from you.
• Out of a stack of clothes, the top one always get to be used the most, as they say old faded clothes are the most comfortable.
• I feel as if I haven't slept for days just before the day of the exam and opening the book for the first time. The more the portions the more the sleep. Once I even fell down unconscious and I thought I had died.
• Always freshen up and comb your hair before you sleep. God knows whom you will meet in your dreams.
• Out of a list of n things to do, well planned according to priority, always a task of least priority and not in the list gets done first.
• Rain will come on those days when I don't carry the umbrella or raincoat thinking its sunny and sky is clear.
• Always the person whom you don't want to meet or interact will pop in front of you completely surprising and embarrassing you.
• The minute one is required to do an important task is the minute one would want to use the toilet.
• You really want to test whether prayers work, just ask God, "I want more challenges!". That prayer never goes unanswered.
• Thoughts are divided into two disjoint sets-PAST and FUTURE. Both consume you and drain away your energy. Never give way, they pull you away like the sea. Act, Act don't let your mind wander. In short idle man's brain is a devil's workshop.
• You might wear costly make-up or even buy a Belgian mirror but you can never see how you look with closed eyes in front of the mirror. So there is more to life and you.
• The joy you get when something strikes you at the right time.We work hard and pay hefty sums for our education just to have that little thing-PRESENCE OF MIND.
• When you're angry, your bass and treble automatically gets set to the maximum, please switch to manual mode instead of auto-mode.
• More than 95% of the troubles will be avoided, if you just step back and ask yourself, is this really what I want to do/be in life.
• My dad's quote: "Happiness and contentment comes only in giving, expectations, frustrations, disappointment come if you want to only keep receiving." 
• My mom's quote: "The worst punishment you can give to a person who hurts you a lot is to completely ignore them and not think about them at all."
• My favourite story: "Once a king employed a very talented mason to build a palace for him. The mason who was very proud to have got the contract built the most exquisite for the king. The king was extremely happy with his work but he neither praised him nor paid him for his hard work. The king kept on extracting more and more work from the mason. This made the proud mason really angry and he thought "I am no slave!". Once the king called the mason and said, "This is your last task. Build this mansion for me." The mason decided to seek his revenge and he wasted all the materials given to him and constructed the most pathetic mansion ever which had leaks and holes everywhere and not fit to even enter inside. The mason stood before the king and said, "Your mansion is over!". The king was so happy and said, "Here is the key. Take it. Its all yours for the hard work you have done for me."
• Another of my favourite stories. A man asked God that he wanted to win 1crore in the lottery. After waiting 3 months he got extremely frustrated and asked God with tearful eyes about why he didn't win. What kind of a God are you? And God said, you would have won, had you even thought of buying the ticket!  
• I like Dumbledore's quote: ""Words are, in my not-so-humble opinion, our most inexhaustible source of magic. Capable of both inflicting injury, and remedying it."
  

Suddenly!

Suddenly!
I wake up in the morning
Breathing heavily
Feeling hot and sweating hard
What did I just dream?

Suddenly!
I stop to think
These roads are never ending
Full of twists and bending
Where am I heading?

Suddenly!
I am out of breath
Thoughts clouded and confused
Hammer my head open
What did I just say?

Suddenly!
I get an inspiration
Like a flash of light
Swallowing the darkness
Why didn't it strike me before?

Suddenly!
I get a feeling
Why should things happen suddenly?

Birth, Life and Death
Are but a process
A part of a greater plan
Well laid out and structured.

Yes I accept.
Surprises, Shock Waves and Flashes
Too are well planned
If not by me
By someone else!

Hey! March.

March is one of the most beautiful months of the year. It is the start of the spring-summer season. Skies are clear giving way to hot, humid nights and the increasing demand for air conditioners. March is also the month to begin on new projects especially construction activities. To forget not, it the end of the financial year and closing of accounts and busiest and the most stressful time for accountants. 

To me, March is the time to make decisions. I don't know, may be the weather or something, you can never feel lazy during this month. See even I couldn't resist the temptation to post in my blog being usually too lazy to type. Those who have slept for the first two months of the year suddenly wake up in a crisp morning of March and say 'Hey, already a quarter of the year is over, I must buck up and achieve something!' Either the person signs up for classes or decide to go for a job or fix some small goals and tasks and try to work on them. 

For students especially, this is the tension period. Yes! BOARD EXAMS!! Very mention of the word scares me even today. I even remember the dates. 1st March-Chemistry, 3rd March English, 6th March Maths, 9th March Physics and 21st March Biology and all in the afternoon session 1:00 to 4:00. I remember resolving with a few of my friends never to touch Physics again in my life. They kept up their promise but I had to suffer as I had two semesters of Physics having taken up B.Sc. Maths. These exams are capable of draining out the little interest you have in the subject.

You either love or hate the month of March but you can't ignore it. Please do add some of your own experiences that happened to you during this month in the comments column.